Suzanne Beecher

Dear Reader,

A big part of the holidays is creating memories, but I never really thought much about it, until this year. I guess it's been on my mind because everyone is gone--Grandma, Grandpa, Mom and Dad--I'm an only child, so there's no one left but me. I know, it's kind of an exaggerated way of thinking, because I have a wonderful husband, grown children of my own and four grandkids. Nevertheless, that's the way I've been feeling.

The "way back when" part of my life is now a time gone by. But I still have memories, and the ones that I choose to remember warm my heart and make the holidays extra special for me.

When I was a kid, every year we would go to my Grandma and Grandpa Hale's house for Christmas. And every year Grandma's house would look the same. The living room would have Christmas cards strung up around the side window. The coffee table was filled with Christmas figurines and a gold candle-type mobile. Four miniature candles sat on the bottom and on the top were four angels that twirled around in a circle, when the candles were lit. The Christmas tree, decorated with bubbling lights, was in front of the big picture window. Poinsettias sat on the floor and end tables, and Grandma's huge Christmas cactus was on a wooden pedestal table next to the television. I don't know how she did it, but her Christmas cactus was always blooming by December 25th.

Someone older than me always seemed to be in charge of creating family memories. But now that everyone else is gone, suddenly I feel a lot of responsibility because the traditions won't continue, unless I make sure they do.

I know I'm putting a lot of pressure on myself and that's what my daughter-in-law told me a few days before Christmas when I was telling her that I was worried I might not be up to the task of keeping family traditions alive.

But she looked at me and smiled, "Suzanne, don't you think you've already been doing that? I'm coming to your house for Christmas dinner and I know exactly what the menu will be and I know how the table will be decorated, because you've made it a tradition."

What a lovely daughter-in-law. How did she know what I needed to hear?

Thanks for reading with me. It's so good to read with friends.

Happy Holidays,

Suzanne Beecher
Suzanne@firstlookbookclub.com

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CHAPTER 1

Hartfield, January 1816

Emma Knightley had encountered her share of vexing moments in life. Stumbling across the body of a murder victim last year was certainly one of them. But nothing could have prepared her for 'this' moment. For a few seconds, she wondered if she'd misheard her father's shocking statement.

Her family had been enjoying a cup of tea, ensconced in Hartfield's drawing room for their final evening together before the holiday season ended. George had been chatting with John, his brother, while Isabella, Emma's older sister as well as John's wife, had been expressing regret that they must return to London after such a charming visit to Highbury with their children. Naturally, their home in London beckoned, as did John's work at the Inns of Court.

At that point, Father had abruptly made his announcement, one that landed with the force of a cannonball crashing into the drawing room.

Emma finally gathered her wits. "I beg your pardon, Father.

I don't think I heard you—"

"What the devil do you mean you're going to marry Miss Bates?" John blustered. "Surely you cannot be serious. The woman's a—"

Emma ruthlessly interrupted her brother-in-law. "What John means, Father, is that perhaps we misunderstood you. You cannot mean that you truly wish to . . ." She found the words almost too hideous to utter. "You know."

Father graced her with a beatific smile. "To take that dear lady as my wife? Yes, I certainly do. Miss Bates and I have discussed the matter at great length. Given the nature of our friendship, we feel that marriage is the proper course of action."

Since Emma found herself unwilling to contemplate what her father meant by 'the nature' of their friendship, she cast a pleading gaze at her husband. George, however, was still regarding his father-in- law with his jaw agape.

Emma cleared her throat to catch his attention before tapping a finger under her jaw. George blinked, and then snapped his mouth shut.

"But, Father," Isabella plaintively said. "You always maintained that you never wished to marry again. You said no one could ever replace Mama in your heart."

"No one will ever replace you blessed mother's memory, my dear girl," Father gently said. "Indeed, I had quite the job persuading Miss Bates to accept my hand, because she feared she could never measure up to such a fine woman's legacy."

"I should think not," exclaimed John. "Miss Bates is a kind woman, but she's a blasted chatterbox, not to mention—ouch!" He glared at George, who was sitting next to him on the sofa. Most likely George had just forcefully jabbed his brother in the leg.

Emma refocused her attention. "Father, I know you and Miss Bates have been a great comfort to each other through difficult times, but is this decision not a trifle . . . well, impetuous? After all, you know how much you hate change." She got a flash of inspiration. "And what of Mrs. Bates? Surely Miss Bates would not wish to leave her mother."

Mrs. Bates was the widow of one of Highbury's former vicars, and well advanced in years. She and her daughter had lived in a small set of apartments in the village ever since the death of Mr. Bates.

Father nodded. "It's kind of  you  to  be  worried  about Mrs. Bates, but such anxieties are unnecessary. She will be moving to Hartfield with Miss Bates."

Emma swallowed a whimper, while George pressed a finger to his lips. He seemed to have recovered from his shock and was now looking rather amused. She supposed she couldn't blame him, since the idea of her father marrying Miss Bates was absurd. From a certain point of view, one might even call it comical. But that point of view didn't happen to be hers.

Then another thought struck with terrible force. Miss Bates would not only become her father's wife, she would become Emma's stepmother.

'Heaven help me.'

Isabella rose and went to their father, taking his hand. "Are you sure, Father? Such a drastic change might greatly affect your health. You and I are not robust, and I cannot fathom what I would do without John to look after me, providing me with everything necessary to my comfort. We go on so quietly in Brunswick Square, with nothing changing from one day to the next—just as you do with Emma and George."

Although John did take excellent care of his wife, Isabella's life was hardly quiet. Not as the mother of five young children. "I understand, my dear," Father replied. "But Miss Bate and I will take care of each other."

Emma blinked, rather stung by that statement. "I take care of you, Father. George and I both do so, gladly."

"You do indeed, my dear. Still, I am such a burden, with all my little oddities. It does weigh on me, on occasion."

"Nonsense, sir," said George in a bracing tone. "You are never a burden. Emma loves you, as do I."

"And why cannot you and Miss Bates simply go on as you have, as the best of friends and companions?" Emma was now a trifle desperate. "She visits almost every day as it is."

"But that's just it," her father replied in a gentle but unyielding tone. "As one gets older, one wishes for companionship with someone of like mind. Miss Bates and I take great comfort in each other's company, and that is nothing to be sneezed at when one reaches my years."

Emma sighed. As sweet-tempered as her father was, he had a stubborn streak. It usually manifested in harmless ways, such as his strict admonitions against cake or his never-ending battle against drafts. But experience had taught her that when Father made up his mind, it was all but impossible to change it.

She mustered a smile that likely looked more like a grimace. "I know how her friendship has been a comfort to you."

He nodded. "Especially in this year past, when life has been so fraught."

This was an obvious reference to the murder of Mrs. Elton, one of Highbury's leading citizens. Both Miss Bates and Father had been greatly affected by that dreadful event, and it had drawn them even closer together.

If the poor woman hadn't come to such an unfortunate end, Emma could almost be cross with Mrs. Elton for having set in motion this domestic cataclysm that was erupting at Hartfield months later.

"And you and George are always so busy—you with Hartfield and your charitable work, and George with Donwell Abbey," her father added. "But now I will have Miss Bates to keep me company. She will also be a great aid to you in managing Hartfield. Miss Bates is a fine housekeeper in her own right, and can relieve you of much of that burden."

The notion of Miss Bates taking over the management of Hartfield was so ghastly that Emma was again stunned into silence.

John snorted. "Miss Bates managing Hartfield? That's the most—"

"I'm sure Miss Bates is more than up to the task," George firmly cut in. "Especially with Emma's help." He cast her a mildly challenging glance. "Is that not so, my dear?"

"Er, yes. Of course," she managed. "If Father is 'really' sure about this."

"I am," Father replied with quiet dignity.

George nodded. "Then please accept my congratulations, sir.

We're very happy for you."

Emma bit back a sigh. Once George gave his approval, there was no point in prolonging the battle.

She dredged up a smile and rose. "Of course we want you to be happy, dearest. If Miss Bates makes you happy, then I am pleased for you."

"I'm not," muttered John.

Emma bent down to give her father a hug. Isabella pulled a slight grimace, but did the same.

"Ridiculous," John groused.

Emma ignored her dratted brother-in-law as she and Isabella resumed their seats. One frequently had to ignore John's outbursts.

"Have you and Miss Bates decided on a date?" George asked. "No," her father replied. "We must think of Jane and Frank. They must travel a great distance for the wedding, and one would not wish them to do so at such an inclement time of year. Jane is still recovering from her lying-in."

'Good Lord, Jane and Frank!'

Emma had not even thought of how the Churchills might react to this unsettling news.

Jane, formerly Jane Fairfax, was the granddaughter of Mrs. Bates and the niece of Miss Bates. Orphaned at an early age, she had been lovingly cared for by the two of them. Jane had eventually gone to live with a school friend whose well-to-do parents had raised her as a second daughter. When she finally returned to Highbury, her intention had been to find a position as a governess. Before that unpleasant prospect had come to fruition, she'd fallen in love with the wealthy Frank Churchill and he with her. They were married a few months before Emma and George, and now resided on the Churchill family estate in Yorkshire.

"Do Jane and Frank know about your plans?" she asked.

Father shook his silver-haired head. "Miss Bates intends to send an express post to Jane first thing in the morning."

"Then I take it the Westons aren't privy to the news, either," said George.

(continued on Tuesday)

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